i am a 39 (nearly 40) smoke stenched tea guzzler who suffers from mental health issues.
"Each of us is something of a schizophrenic personality, tragically divided against ourselves"
Looking back, you realize that a very special person passed briefly through your life, and that person was you. It is not too late to become that person again. unfortunately it is far to late.
It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere
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Nine Inch Nails - We’re In This Together
you and me
we’re in this together now
none of them can stop us now
we will make it through somehow
you and me
if the world should break in two
until the very end of me
until the very end of youMy emotions have been this really fun rollercoaster lately. Occasionally I need to put my headphones on and listen to this as loudly as I possibly can just to drown everything out. That may be emo or whatever, I don’t care. I need to keep focused on what matters and remember what’s important. That’s all there is.



A few weeks ago we announced that we were making some improvements to the BBC’s Weather website, including a clearer, more focused design of the homepage.
Since then we’ve been running a “beta” version of the new site to allow us to try out these new features and listen to your comments and feedback. Following that successful trial period, I’m pleased to say that we are launching the new weather site today.

We’ve had a great response to the beta site which has received around…
Some of you might have come across a test page for something we’re working on for the BBC News website and I wanted briefly to explain what we’re up to.

During the past few years the “live page” format has become a regular feature of our coverage around big breaking stories. We’ve used it for stories such as the UK general election, Egypt, the Japan earthquake, Libya and the Budget for example.
These live pages have allowed us to pull together content related to a big…
Security firm’s email also identifies location of possible kettle.
Two hours ago, I was passed this email via a trusted source. It suggests that police plan to kettle demonstrators along the route of today’s education march, and that plans are in place to use potentially lethal water cannon “if need be”. The memo appears to come from Business Monitor International (BMI, a security risk company. The police have denied the suggestion.

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